Yay, dress is bought but I look wide (aka larger) in it. Scarred for life. :( No more thinking about that! Now onto Parsons home exam... $%&^*^% (and no that was not swearing). Sigh.. I don't like cutting paper up and using only a small square of it. Really, I feel guilty (haha.. and I don't really feel guilty about getting expensive things. That's actually pretty amusing.. I feel guilty for cutting up paper and not guilty when I splurge on luxury items.. LOL... oh I crack myself up)...
Mmmmmm.. I feel so brainless right now. Seriously I have come to realize I pretty much suck at writing thanks to English. I suck at writing and it's dawned on me. I'm so stupid, entering English thinking I could even write better than a lot of people. Guess not. Yech. I've been basically relying on my seminars to pull my mark up and I can't even write a darned essay. I've basically tried my 'best' (okay I no longer know what people mean when they say 'try your best' cuz I feel like I can always do better) and I've only gotten an 81. That's really pathetic. Really. And no, I'm not comparing myself with others, I'm just disappointed that if I truly did put 100% effort into English, I still get an outcome of 81%!?!? In the past three years I've gotten 80% without trying as hard. Omg.. I don't get it. I shouldn't try. I mean I got 90% on my anti painting without trying as hard. Is it possible to overthink and overtry? I don't think so...