I'm so tired of this life (sorry, I'm adding to the number of hopeless sounding blog entries but it's therapeutic). I despise trying to guess the veiled meanings of what people say. Why can you not just simply tell me and life would be so much easier. Why go through all these petty guessing games? Why sacrifice time trying to be coy when you could have used that time to get to know each other. It doesn't make sense. My heart softens and hardens at the same time. When people make me guess I feel exasperated. Who are you? Why do you like to make me think one way and then another the next? This not only is damaging to relationships but creates a sense of distrust. I just want to be real. I just want people to be real.

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TANIA IS MY BEST FRIEND........ ha!